But don't be fearless.
I thought this was everything.
Moving to New York to work for Goldman Sachs.
For someone who lived a performance-driven life, it was everything.
Sure, I was living the dream. But I wasn't in that dream. And I couldn't ignore it any longer.
It wasn't about "where" I worked. It was about the fact I was confusing "where" I worked with "who" I was.
I remember looking at myself in the mirror. I asked the confronting questions, "Who am I?", and, "What am I here to do?"
The answers seemed elusive. Especially because my mind was cultivated in the soil of logic and reasoning, so I can rationalize anything. I knew I needed frameworks, ways of thinking, to help me process these deeper questions.
I got the tools, and the answer: Surrender.
And it began to make sense. Which doesn't make sense.
I had to let go to gain more. To be propelled instead of withheld.
I was holding on to prestige, power, money and status.
And I found those things in my job. So, I quit.
(Let me be clear --- there is nothing wrong with power, money, etc. It's a good thing. But it goes bad when it's pursued in excess, or in the wrong ways. Like all good things, according to C.S. Lewis, bad things are simply good things gone bad.)
For me, leaving my job is what "letting go" looked like. It may look different for someone else. It just depends on what they're holding on to. What you're holding on to.
Be encouraged, though. You're in control. We often think we don't have freedom because something is holding on to us. But, in fact, it's the other way around. We had to grab it in the first place.
You're introspective. You think about these things, too. Just maybe not as often as I do.
It doesn't mean they're valued less. It just means you may think of your value less.
By value I mean purpose. What you were created for.
It's not about what you do. It's about why you do it.
It's about why you do anything, really.
You can survive.
But I want you to thrive.
And it starts with untangling your identity. So you can begin to live more confidently. With purpose.
Now, take a good look in the mirror. And don't be afraid. Welcome to yourself.
Why do I write to you each week?
Because I'm here to help my generation activate their lives. With faith, and courage.
But you can only help someone who wants to be helped. So I'll ask you to meet me half-way.
Join us in New York City, on December 10, 2016. You'll spend your Saturday morning meeting new people, and getting life-changing ways of thinking.
It's for those who want to live more intentionally, and get tools to help. Make the time to invest in your future. We have a beautiful space at Drift Studio in Chelsea. And some great sponsors to boot.
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